As in any well intentioned regime, I stumbled.  I indulged in to much alcohol & proceeded to dial up my biological father to tell him how I feel about certain things.  It was not a well balanced conversation to say the least.  However, if nothing else, it helped me to realize that he is not now, nor will really ever be, a part of my life.  Too many events in my life are requiring all my focus, energy & emotion for me to continue to waste my personal resources in the fruitless attempt to understand or communicate with an individual who has no interest in my life. 

Granted, what I said & how I said it are things I will have to work on & come to terms with.  But, it's out there now & there isn't much I can do about that.